I wish I could say there was only one reason. But there was definitely a primary reason. The last two months have been a little rough for my family. My little sister had a major stroke. For those of you who’ve had a loved one go through this you’ll understand perfectly what I mean. It’s sudden, unexpected, and unfortunately my sister didn’t make it to the hospital in time to get the medication that would have saved her from the more severe damage. So there we were: a family in turmoil having to make major decisions regarding my sister’s life.
Truly, social media had become habitual chaos. Posting, commenting, liking, sharing across four–sometimes five–platforms can be a lot. When real life happens, suddenly it can appear to be a little absurd. With the challenges of new circumstances, clicking on a social media icon was too difficult. My little sister’s life was forever altered, and there was a window when we weren’t sure if she would survive. So eventually, I went onto all my social media sites and just deleted them. One after the other and in a matter of a seconds they were all gone. And there was something empowering about that moment. I knew what mattered most and I was going to give it my full attention.
There was a part of me that felt a little guilty. I had released my debut novel in late July and had been plugging away on social media to promote the book. I met many great folks. Sometimes I wished I had that back again. The playful comments and genuine connections. There are a ton of kind and generous people out there. Right now my days are filled with juggling my kids’ needs, helping with my little sister, and continuing to serve in Indian Child Welfare. We just finished Cherokee Nation’s Angel Project where we gave Christmas gifts to 2,800 Cherokee children in need. We made Christmas a little brighter for some of our most impoverished citizens. I also got to spend quality time with my daughters, and worked with my little sister to help her speak again. It’s been busy and trying in profound ways.
I’m grateful, and I’ve been good about being grateful, but maybe I’m a little more grateful these days. Maybe sometime in the future I’ll start my social media back up again. If a new normal ever sets in. For the time being, I’ll be posting here on my blog. It’s much more straight forward and easy to engage with. Right now I need to keep my life simple to get through.